I've been under lot of stress. Stress in between Army and Friendship. I got to admit I thought life in new camp will be easier after graduating from Tekeong. Never did I expect it to be way worst then what I expected. Yes, it would be stupid giving out my space in driving. Thousand of the Army's guys wanted this space so badly but than what's the point of driving when I don't find any passion in it. Besides, I really have no talent in driving. It really stress me out as well as driving me crazy with a fierce and no patient instructor. Army did changed me to a better person but then it also pushes away my friends especially the 'priority' of booking out only on Sat. Sigh ! It's been awhile since i observe the distance between my friends and I. Really hurt me so much when i felt the distance between them. They have their own life which mine cannot connect well with them. Some of them also have boyfriends while I have Army as my new boyfriend. It's iike asking god to be friend with devil. I doubt i will be their first priority to call when they are facing problem because of my pack timing in camp. This really sucks and time is running out, i got to start preparing and be ready to book it. Goodbye bitches out there, xoxo.

Time check : 7.49. 2hours left to enjoy before booking in. Sometime I wish for a miracle to happen. Such that the government announces all man need not to serve NS if they are not willing to do so. I will definitely be the first one to celebrate. Unfortunately that is a wish will never happen. It's just so tiring to book in and out every week, give me a break for god sake. Sigh.

Anyway this post is to delicate to my wonderful mother I have. Mother's day is coming but I have nothing to give her because all my pennies are spent on my IPL that made me so broke currently. So I decided to delicate a post for her which is cost free. HAHA. Ever since the day i enlisted into Army, I realize the one that truly supported me from day 1 i enlisted till now is Mummy. Not only she has been giving me mentally and physical support, in terms of my financial, she has given me more than enough. Yesterday I was just complaining to her how brother keep using my stuffs especially my LV wallet when I'm in camp. Today afternoon she came home telling me to choose a new LV wallet i wanted online and she will buy me one. I paused for a while before a loud 'YAY' came in. Due to my highly maintenance, she is willing to work hard/take a few more extra students just to fulfill my wish list. Up next, I have to extend my eyelashes and get some make up from Mac, definitely sure Mummy will pay for it. Isn't she the best mother in the whole wide world? To summarize, She love, pamper and treat me like a princess. Most important, she not only acted a role of mothership also as my best friend and counselor. I more than willing to share Mummy's love and blessing to all of my Best friends, right girls? Xoxo.

Anyway this is the new wallet Mummy getting for me, chio right? Yayyyy !

Time check : 3.00am. I will be way deep into my lalaland at this timing if I'm in camp. Hell no to be sleeping at this hour on weekends. I was posted to Sembawang camp as a driver, fuck this shit. I detest being a driver, so fucking hate it maximum. What i hate the most is being posted to a unit full of shit people. Sigh...i guess I'll have to double up the percentage of overcoming and becoming stronger. What to do? I'll just have to suck my fucking thumb and whine like a baby. It seems like most of my ex-camp mates are getting better jobs. Need not to stay in, free and easy. Big sigh.

Experiencing all this shit in camp, lucky enough to have a few best of the best friends and wonderful family around to encourage and pamper me like a spoilt princess. The first credit goes to Mummy Gan and then Prince Edward Rino Viceory Menthol Chia lovetakingmidnightcabhome. Mummy Gan not only sent me encourage messages, she prove it all by action. I bet tomorrow's shopping trip with dinner and my all time fav 'ice-cream' buffet provided by Mummy Gan will be awesome. Though she acted and nag like a queen still, my love for her will remain like she's the only queen in the world. I think Rihanna got inspire from me for her 'Only Girl In The World' hahaha i was just joking, chill. Up next, Prince Edward Rino. I spent most of my 1week break i had with him including this weekends. I will have to say the way he treated me almost like a princess though he became such an irritating pest with his bitchy mouth along. Though he adores acting like a crazy bitch, my secret love for him remain way high up kept by Johava safety in a treasure box. I hardly express my sister love to him but as along as he know i 'love' and 'stalk' him like a bygone spraying at a pest, that is enough. HAHAHAHA. Uh-oh, i left out my beloved Granny.

Sadly to mention, I'm such a bitch for not visiting her regularly and express my concern for her. I remember visited her last thursday and it's great though i hate her nagging and talking non-stop for an hour. My ears literally break down for that hour I guess. I hardly remember what she told me. LOL.  I have to be honest I act like a baby when we have our dinner together. I requested Granny to feed me because i was so fucking lazy to even move my fingers. HAHAHAHA. The moment i open my mouth and talk, she immediately put down her food and start feeding me like a mother feeding a baby. I was shock she still use the tactic of blowing on my rice and soup before feeding me, but cute right? HAHAHA. I did keep act accordingly to it. I open my mouth and make an 'ahhhhhhhhhh' noise. HAHAHAH i think i can join mediacorp and get the best acting cute award. LOL.  As always, every good thing will come to an end. I have to leave. The moment i saw Granny's glittery eyes, it breaks my heart so fucken badly. A hug and kiss on her cheeks is the only way to stop looking into her puppy's eyes and then leave with no turning back. Like how the actors acted when they are leaving someone they love. See i told you i should join the mediacorp. I probably should start interviewing tomorrow and will get famous the following day. HAHAHAHA.

Oh well, this morning i woke up thinking ' Thank God, It's Friday' and now i was like ' Oh fuck, Friday came to an end'. Left with two days to enjoy before facing the harsh reality god planned for me. Time check : 3.45am. Goodnight, xoxo.

Hihi lil miss sunshine is back blogging hahaha. Monday blue for you? I hope not. It's the best monday i ever got. Feeling fresh, clean, smell awesome and have so much energy in me. Woke up at 12pm to prepare and off i went to tele-visit my Big Brother. It's been long since i last visit Big Brother, guilty ! I was shock to see Big Brother grow bigger and fitter, i bet some horny girls outside will never resist the temptation of having sex with him. HAHAHA. Heart-heart session with Big brother was awesome, felt like we are connecting back somehow (: Head back home after the tele-visit to recharge my body before traveling all the way to Cine for some singing session with my camp mates. Hope it will turn out to be fun ! Hate the feeling of having to constantly remind myself to get the things i need and pack all my stuffs in one piece before my 1week break runs off. Well i hope everyone have a good day today. Till then, xoxo.

I literally died on my first day of my enlistment. I never expect myself to go thru this far. I survived and manage to scrape thru my BMT. I made both my parent and friends proud. It's all about the mindset actually. I have never done anything to make my parent proud or achieve something for them, only to disgrace them by doing the wrong things and being a gay. Nevertheless, they accepted the way i'm though I know it's kinda disappointing for them. But this is the first time I ever did something to make them proud. The smile in their faces melt my heart and it's definitely my most defining and memorable moment. It's never easy to survive in army with such a weak health and often remind myself to be mentally strong despite the fact that every other guys is making fun of me for their pleasure and entertainment. Something it's just so tiring to be mentally and physically strong. After all I'm still a human not robot. We will still have our breakdowns. Thank god i still did it because I NEED and MUST make my parent proud.

Anyway a part of my success to pass out from Tekeong credit to some of the special people in my platoon. You guys know who you're. They never fail to brighten up my day as well as driving me crazy. ESPECIALLY NG YU NONG, he never fail to give me some love and ABUSE ME like nobody business EACH and EVERY DAY ! Since i survived in Tekeong, there's no reason i will fail myself in new unit. I always thought i need to act like a man to avoid all the gossip and disturbing scenes. But no matter how man I acted accordingly, there's no way to fake all this and it take lies to cover a lie. The people there are definitely not stupid. So starting from today I'm gonna just be myself, no reason for me to be afraid or cautious because i was given 4 whole months to upgrade another level of being mentally stronger. Watch me being the biggest bitch ever in my life and make sure most of the guys remember me throughout their life. C'mon bitches, bring all your criticism and demoralizing words to beat me down because it will only make me stronger each time. I know you guys are just being jealous because i have so many beautiful ladies all around me.

Last but my least i would like to thank all my ladies. Since the day i enlisted till the day i pass out from tekeong, they never fail to send their encouragement messages, listening me whine like a slut as while as pray and chant for me. They have given me more than what i expected, a big thank you to them and it really meant something to me. 4 names i would like to mention - Candy, Carilyn, Rino, Lynn. They will never fail to be there whenever i need someone to talk to in camp, once again thank you. I owe you guys a meal. Let's plan a day outing, just the four of you and we will have a blast okay? Till then, XOXO.